Here, there wasn't a much story for a fairytale that never had a happy ending and what could be taken as a consequence are tears and sadness. How could you see the light if you're all packed and hidden down the chambers? How could you find solace if you're all lonely and alone? How can a light mend a broken heart if it never yearns for healing?
A ray of hope I've seen when I saw you. I thought I'd be like a dumb clinging to you like you're gonna stay forever but I didn't so I thought this is something. That you are someone who will not make me tolerate myself to inevitable emotional distresses of being rejected so many times and still hold on. Well, you were perfectly nice that I couldn't find some fault in you.
But this isn't what made you a different want if it wasn't for that past that made me cling to you. The mere denunciation of my own submissions and overtures utterly made a conclusion of becoming cold and disgusted. And now, I couldn't possibly say what is it now that I still can't erase him in my mind even if I'm with you. But still, I'll choose you even if I've chose him before.
Yes, I'm still reluctant.
That day when I started realizing all these things, I've learned that there isn't much of him that is to you that I could really put a stake on. But a stupid thing it is that I still want him and need you. I wish I could tell you that if only you could be him in a way that you'll still be you then everything would be okay that I wouldn't even bother looking at him.
You looked at me and I rejected you with reasons of confusion. Three times I've wounded your heart and acted like I didn't care. But if you must see that it is I who felt more pain than you. For hurting someone whom you love and needed for so long.
I know that you would still forgive me and continue to me by friend, my guardian, my timid lover. I don't know if a part of me will die if you'll perish within my sight but surely I'll miss someone who've always made me feel secure and happy without even trying so much.
I wished that someday you'll free me from this place, from this sadness and confusion. I know that He will help you and perhaps, me too. I wished to see the light. I wished to forget that once there was a princess trapped in a castle with no sight to see the clear blue sky.
But this isn't what made you a different want if it wasn't for that past that made me cling to you. The mere denunciation of my own submissions and overtures utterly made a conclusion of becoming cold and disgusted. And now, I couldn't possibly say what is it now that I still can't erase him in my mind even if I'm with you. But still, I'll choose you even if I've chose him before.
Yes, I'm still reluctant.
That day when I started realizing all these things, I've learned that there isn't much of him that is to you that I could really put a stake on. But a stupid thing it is that I still want him and need you. I wish I could tell you that if only you could be him in a way that you'll still be you then everything would be okay that I wouldn't even bother looking at him.
You looked at me and I rejected you with reasons of confusion. Three times I've wounded your heart and acted like I didn't care. But if you must see that it is I who felt more pain than you. For hurting someone whom you love and needed for so long.
I know that you would still forgive me and continue to me by friend, my guardian, my timid lover. I don't know if a part of me will die if you'll perish within my sight but surely I'll miss someone who've always made me feel secure and happy without even trying so much.
I wished that someday you'll free me from this place, from this sadness and confusion. I know that He will help you and perhaps, me too. I wished to see the light. I wished to forget that once there was a princess trapped in a castle with no sight to see the clear blue sky.
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